I can’t push up

This is me doing 10 push ups. I am really struggling to do push ups. I weigh a lot.

I can not do a pull up on my current weight range. When I was 60kg and in grade 9 I could do about 8 pull ups, but only about 10 push ups. Now, push ups are easier than pull ups, because of my heavy weight.

I thank you all for following me. I thank you all for blessing me with your company.

Lame Sparring

One of the people online said that my sparring is more like dancing. I know I could make all kinds of criticisms about my fighting style. I am not good at fighting, due to the severity of my disability. I can not compete with other young men.

I haven’t sparred with my friend for at least 6 months. I did more sparring when I felt more confident. Now I’m just a shadow of my former self. I have gained more weight. When I stepped on the scales today, I weighed 122kg. So my weight isn’t going anywhere.

I went to social tennis today. I feel happier playing social tennis than doing sparring with my buddy. I’m not good at tennis, either. I am slow on the court.

That’s my life.