For me at least, being on medication is not that bad. I’m on 150mg Invega Sustenna depot injection and 200mg Desvenlafaxine. Invega Sustenna is an anti-psychotic and Desvenlafaxine is an anti-depressnant.
I don’t have many side effects. My Invega has made my big toe stand up on both feet while walking, so I have holes in both shoes where the big toes stand up. But it is more evident in the left foot. My Desvenlafaxine cures my hypersexuality associated with the bipolar element of my schizoaffective disorder.
So, I can’t think really of many side effects that bother me. Of course, I’d rather be on the tablet form of the depot, but the quality of psychiatrists in Brisbane (my city) is not really good. So I just bear their snide remarks with humility.
I hope nobody has to take the medications I’m on. You should only take it if you are suicidal, and mindfulness and meditation doesn’t help. That’s my opinion.
I looked at my previous blogs. I have low self-esteem frequently, though it is getting better the longer I take my depot. I just hope I’m able to come off my depot in the future. I do not want to be on meds for the rest of my life.
My former psychiatrist said the maximum length of time somebody can be on medication is for 60 years. So I guess they just die after being medicated for so long? It is not a good way to live.
But I’m not in a hurry to find a new psychiatrist. Even though now, I only have my GP, I will look for a psychiatrist later on. I prefer going to a psychiatrist, as I can ask more specific questions about my illness.
This is a picture from the point-and-click game called Timelapse: Ancient Civilisations. It has a time machine in it. I would like to rewrite the history of my life, with the experiences I now have. I would of told my parents just how bad my old high school was. They would of let me leave that high school.
Ironically, I got kicked out of a very immoral high school, where they looked down on students who fell behind. But I would like to take the old school teachers to court for kicking me out of a school where I was bullied every day. But the judges are unethical, too. If they weren’t, they would of done something about it already.
God bless my enemies. You will not go unpunished in the next life.
This is some whack-job pistol from the Borderlands 2 series. The series is famous for having a random gun generator, which can annoy the hell out of halo players. I personally, like the random gun generator, because it gives me an interesting set of usually <crap> weaponry.
This pistol probably has a digistruct module in it, where the bullets that have shot through a target are simultaneously put back into the barrel. Like bullet teleportation, of sorts. That’s my theory.
Anyway, if any of you have played other series of borderlands apart from Borderlands 1 and 2, I’d love to hear your input on the other games in the series. God bless you!
This is what I found when I looked up ‘eroded landscape’ on google image search. I chose it because I liked it. It reminded me of the Anasazi world in the ‘Timelapse’ series.
My heart and will feel eroded. So does my courage. But I guess it is God’s will, to teach me gentleness, kindness and humility. So when God tests us or takes something away, it is to be a corrective measure, rather than a punitive measure.
I do pray for the world. I pray there will not be a 3rd World War. I pray there will not be a market collapse.
This image is from a 1996 game called ‘Timelapse: Ancient Civilisations.’ Even though it is available on gog galaxy, I don’t play it, as I’m not good with problem solving or lateral thinking, due to my Autism Spectrum Disorder.
I miss that game. My mom helped me get through the levels in Grade 2 and 3. We bought the game after it was released. I was in Grade 2 in 1997 and Grade 3 in 1998.
On a different topic, I went overseas for the only time in my life in 1998. I don’t remember vomiting on the trip. But I was scared, because if I lost my mum, I’d be in trouble. I went to Singapore and Malaysia. It was too hot. But actually, I don’t remember the heat and humidity.
Now I can speak limited Chinese, but I hate summers, as my medication makes me more sensitive to heat extremes. That’s why I have the air con on in my room at night, to help me sleep.
I will most likely never travel overseas, unless my schizophrenia was cured.