My birthday

Today is my birthday. I am 33 years old today. I feel like I’m getting old. But I’ve never been more stable since my mental breakdown in 2006.

My present was a bubble tea from my support worker. His company was nice. I had a few relatives over for my birthday. It was nice. I see my support worker tomorrow as well.

I feel better after my depot, which happened yesterday. It is now 9:50pm at night. My cousins have just finished their piano lesson with my mom, and are preparing to return home.

My mom teaches piano. She is a piano teacher of beyond grade 8 standard. That’s the highest standard. God bless her.

I play piano to a grade 1 standard. I’m not very good at piano. I’ve been a beginner for nearly 20 years. Oh well.

Happy birthday to me! I enjoyed my 33rd birthday! It was awesome!


I can play music

I felt I played this piece really well. I like this piece.

My hair was short after going to a barber who wouldn’t use scissors to cut the top of my head.

I used to play this piece often when I was a kid about 17 years ago. This was before my mental breakdown. I must of been manic back then.

Thank you all for your love and support!


Got those boogie blues

I am here playing a 1st grade piece. It is fairly simple. I used to play this song when I was better in 2005. Now in 2022 I am revisiting it, 17 years later. Boy, a lot has changed in 17 years.

In 2005, I was 60kg and a cadet. Now I’m a person who lives on the Disability Support Pension, because I can’t cope with life. Life feels very unreal to me, due to my hallucinations and delusions.

I guess, even from a young age, I knew I’d end up having no hope. I had a courage failure in 2006 when I broke down and had to be rushed to hospital. Now, I’m a broken man.


I have the ability to play the piano.

What I can perform, I usually show it on YouTube, within the context of a person on medication, to show others that people with disabilities can have some skills, too.

God bless all the people who view my blogsite.

I pray for the world, and the stability of its empires.

I can piano

I got the name of the song wrong, it is ‘andantino’ not ‘adantino’. I apologize for that.

I can sort of play the piano. I don’t practice often though, as I do not practice martial arts much either.

I have been falling behind in my qi gong as well. This is mostly because I am tired from going out during the day.

I went to the barber to cut my hair. Now I look like military personnel. But it’s ok. I still have Jesus (to a degree). This video was made before I cut my hair.

The Piano

This is me playing the piano very poorly. The circuits in my brain have been corroded by overmedicating. I sincerely wish that nobody would have to take anti-psychotics long term. Anti-depressants may be ok for a few years, but then a person should get back on their feet and live their life. I haven’t taken drugs, alcohol or cigarettes, but yet I caught schizoaffective disorder at 16 years old. Something must of gone very wrong with my thinking.

Schizoaffective disorder means schizophrenia with a mood component. Or otherwise known as half schizophrenia, half bipolar mood disorder. The best of both worlds. So it is a nightmare to have, and sometimes, I try to loosen up, with disastrous consequences. Basically, when you are in the ‘schizo’ classification of disorders, you can not be yourself around anybody, unless you want to make a fool of yourself or be reported to the police. You always got to think before you speak. It is a huge cross.

Oh well, maybe reincarnation is true and I will get a better rebirth in the next life. But I’m not certain about Buddhist theology. I believe in this life, then heaven or hell.