I started cadets when I was 15 in June 2005. It was horrible, but it really improved my character, and prepared me for the struggles with mental illness.
Before I got sick in February 2006, I had never asked out a girl. I also started Tae kwon do in about March 2005. So from March 2005 to about March 2006, I was practicing celibacy, as in; not asking out women, not playing with myself, and eventually, enjoying women’s company as friends.
But when I was put on olanzapine in March 2006, I began to be curious about women. As Jesus said in the gospel ‘this demon cometh out only by prayer and fasting.’ So since olanzapine causes significant weight gain, I couldn’t resist my hormones, being fuelled by appetite increase. I was eating until I vomited on olanzapine, but the psychiatrists of the kiddie’s mental health wouldn’t do anything about it.
If I had managed to restrict my intake of food, I wouldn’t of noticed women, and maintained my celibacy vow. But I know now that most women would of been happier had I permanently maintained my celibacy. God bless women and their lofty standards.
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