Deterioration

I’m feeling more grouchy than usual. Mum says it is due to depression. I thought it was a symptom of schizophrenia, such as being more touchy.

I must of been a terrible person in a previous lifetime to deserve this kind of sickness. I hope reincarnation is not true, and I’m just being punished for schoolyard bullying that I performed in primary school.

I am trying to be a good person. But sometimes good people get taken advantage of. So grouchiness is a defence mechanism.

Nobody has true humility. I have the closest thing I’ve ever seen in a human being to true humility. And people use it as an excuse to walk all over me, rather than saying ‘he truly is a man of God!’