If we remember our sins, God will forget them. Thus said the wise and holy St John Chrysostom. If you watch this video, you will see a glimpse into the Orthodox mindset.
Although I am a sinner, and unworthy of being in the least way a messenger of truth, I still admire and strongly advocate the Nicodemus Hagiorite and Gregory Decapolite YouTube channels.
I have spoken at time to the founder of these sites by email. He tells me not to despair. He is quite a kind and soft spoken guy. His name is Constantine Zalalas. He lives to teach others about Orthodoxy.
God bless us all.